I always hate to wear black as it is no longer my favorite color. However, today, I attended a funeral. A sad and touch one...
In bus, although everyone was taking jokes and playing cards, deep in the heart, everyone was sad. Someone we knew is no longer beside us.
Going to Choo's hometown, Mantin, this is somewhere Hao Zhi and I went to his house to complete on of our lab project during 1st year. I remember the road where we walk to shops, I remember the shops that looks old, I remember the warung where we used to had breakfast, and the corner lot where we used to have dinner. I remember the route towards his house where a lot of dogs braking at as when we passed though and his cosy house which had a wide yard.
This is the 2nd time i came back to the place and guessed might be the last time. So much memory in there although i just stayed for 2 days. Having a chance to see his last appearing, lying in the coffin lifelessly, I can't believe that he was still jumping around in school in one week time before this. Looking at his picture, it was downloaded from facebook, and never thought that it was used for his funeral photo...
After some chanting and seeing him last look, we went to the place where the burial takes place. Sending him my last regards by putting flowers into the hole where he is buried. Saying silently: Choo, all the best in your new journey. I only able to send you until here. Tears started rolling in my eyes as I tried to control it from flowing it.
And this is how i send off my friend. A friend that I know after I left my beloved hometown JB and came to sunway, a friend that we studied MUFY together and went to the same university, a friend that help me whenever I had problems. I realised that all this while I received his helps and accompany for granted. And now, I really regret doing so...
Life still goes on, and hope that my friends and I will face the problems and difficulties coming to us with strength and courage. The tomb of Narutokyo will be placed in Nirvana Memorial Park. Just like what Kakashi flashed back what his nakama said when visit his nakama's tomb, which is the best phrase I heard so far:
In the ninja world, those who break the rules and regulations are called trash
But those who don't care about their friends are even worse than trash
Guess this is what Choo hold as his principle of life...
From his sister:
我会学会好好驾车。我会学会自己买每天的必需品。我会学会修理我的电脑。我会学会不再那么依赖别人。我会学会不再投诉那么多。我会学会宽恕。我会学会如何照顾别人。我会学会好好爱人。 所以, 不需要担心,不需要挂念。我爱你。
From his family:
To all Monash University and Sunway Condo personnel-staff and students:
We, the family of late Choo Jian Yi, would like to convey our heartfelt appreciation to you all for your support, kind words, condolences and wreaths, during our recent bereavement.
From,
Choo Nyuk Lin, Helen and Khi Khi
Let's keep moving on. Use the past as lessons for our future. Time does not heal all pain unless you let go it. Living in the past will only bring miserable life... Lets achieve personal growth...
(After 4 post entry about a friend, guess I should keep on moving)