Thursday, September 30, 2010

Wake me up when September Ends

September had come to an end. Meaning 3/4 year of 2010 had past.

Yet, I feel that I am still stepping at the same point, not moving forward.

Wake me up, when Spetember ends.... *yawn*

Thursday, September 2, 2010

在梦里
你主动牵了我的手
我也鼓起勇气拥抱你
那一刻
我觉得很幸福
很甜蜜
但我还是松开了双手
离开了你

梦醒后
想起那场梦
虽然有股冲动
想告诉你我爱你
但我知道我不能拥有你
因为我不想伤害你
更不想伤害我自己

对不起
请原谅我的自私

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

独立53年,那又怎样?

马来西亚53年了。起初的发展中国家,到现在还是发展中国家,但2020年先进国宏愿没有看似更近,反而感觉越来越遥远了。想到这是我生于斯,长于斯的地方,这一点,真叫人痛心。

2004年之后,负面新闻不断涌现。政商勾结,贪污腐败,滥权打压,施政不公,种种事情令人感到恶心无比。而人民也用选票来表达悲愤,造就了308大选的结果。308 后,以为各政府会有些长进,但反而每况愈下。联邦与各州政府担心选票流失,根本不敢大刀阔斧的改革。现在的心情只能说是恨铁不成钢。53年了,我们还在内乱,各方自我制造假想敌人,为什么不用这剩精于力来为国为民了?说穿了,各方也自为各自的名利斗个你死我活而已。当然,当中也有为人为民的领袖,但简直是凤毛麟角而已。我们90年代,自豪的稳定政局哪去了?

90 年代,我国经济表现亮眼。许多外国公司来我国设厂,使到各行各业的发展都欣欣向荣。现在,外资撤离,通货严重,失业率攀升,但根本没看到官老爷,想任何应对策略,来亡羊补牢。经济蛋糕没变大,反而缩小,一小撮人没有帮忙想如何弄大这块蛋糕,反而想法如何让自己分得大块点,还祭出种族牌来理直气壮地讨蛋糕,真是贪得无厌。国家经济,是国家每个个体的贡献,大家都有权利分一杯羹,不是吗?邻边国家经济正逐渐起飞,越南,印尼,菲律宾等,曾被我国抛在远后的德国家也迎头赶上。当我们还沾沾自喜能聘请廉价外劳时,殊不知自己国家输出马佣/马劳的日子,也许不远了。我们的强势经济成长哪去了?

近年来,宗教与种族歧视叫嚣,各领袖媒体发表各式不负责任的言论。为什么53 年了,我们还要攻击其他人的肤色宗教,而不是尊重呢?旅游局喜欢向外国宣扬我国是文化的大杂锅,这也成我国的特殊文化。各族拥有各自的文化,理应互相尊重,互相帮忙保护他族的文化。但这美好的共识,近年来被有心人士严重破坏。宗教场所被攻击,宗教圣物被羞辱,数年前我们嘲笑印尼发生宗教被攻击时,为什么同样的事发生在自己的国土呢?我们和谐的社会哪去了?

在国外,人都对我国子民精通多种语言而感到羡慕,这是令人骄傲的事。世界上,有多少个国家能像我国让人民个自学习各自母语的机会呢?殊不知在国内,令我们骄傲的特殊教育体系面对着艰辛的挑战。很多时候母语教育被有心人士视为人民团结的绊脚石,但往往这些人看不出,很多时候是行政上的偏袒。奖学金发放不公,学校内这有固打,那又限制,没被特殊照顾的一群心里会平衡吗?被特殊照顾的心生莫名的优越感,又会怎么看待其他人呢。教育和政治理应楚河汉界分得清楚,但很多时候,教育政策往往是从政治为出发点,破坏了教育的本质。教育理应向空气一样,免费又容易得到。但当人们用有色眼镜来看待教育时,掌权的一方想对另一方设下诸多限制,试问教育体系里提倡的有教无类哪儿去了?

扶弱济贫,没有错,但政府对贫弱的定义却令人百思不解。贫弱的定义,不看能力与金钱,反而看肤色,是定义下错还是别有所图,就不得而知了。把自己族群归类为贫穷,如果是真的,也许能帮助许多真正许要帮助的人;如果不全然真的,只会灭自族威风。在国外,人们对自己需要他人帮忙而感到害羞。如果并非真正需要,也不会寻求帮忙。但国内的歪风是有钱没钱都觉得自己需要帮忙,使到往往真正需要帮助的人的不到应有的帮助。马来西亚人的骨气哪去了?

国内司法治安也令人忧心。司法公正让人民灰心,因为许多案件的审判往往是出自于法官对宪法的诠释,而非从普罗大众的利益出发。犯罪率上升,使人即使在家内,也不觉得安全,出门了也感到提心吊胆;外资也不敢来了我国投资,因为失窃案层出不穷,会造成无谓的损失。警界贪污滥权造成小撮警员不务正业,与其用这些时间精力来抓贼擒盗,往往遭殃的是小市民。和平请愿遭打压,无缘无故遭找查,使市民怕那些害群之马的警察多过怕贼盗。被喻为人民之友的警察哪去了?

独立53年,那又怎样?即时独立60年,甚至100年,人民与政府思想不进步,独立xx年也只不过是个没有意义的数字而已。

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

孤单旅行

自从两年前去了澳洲,我爱上旅行。希望将来能有个伴,陪我在世界各地,留下我们的足迹。

当我以为自己找到时,她的一句话,让我醒了回来。就像Inception电影的一句对白:
Cobb: Dreams feel real while we're in them. It's only when we wake up that we realize something was actually strange.

别做梦了。继续孤单旅行吧!


孤单旅行
演唱:何耀珊

當我睜開了眼睛 卻沒看見你
我才想起 難道你已經離去
當我走進了客廳 覺得太安靜
我才感到 真的一切變得好冷清

*就算我努力試著面對 卻還是不知如何相信這一切
 從今後你不在我身邊 誰給我勇氣面對快樂和傷悲

#真的要開始了自己 這場孤單的旅行
 走在同樣的生活裡 過不一樣的生命
 該怎麼開始我自己 這場孤單的旅行
 你依然住在我心裡 我依然想你

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Inception

It had been 2 months since i last updated my blog. This is explained and showed how lifeless and how unexciting my working life is. However, the visit of Tze Yong last week at least make my time not so dull. Had a wonderful steamboat dinner last Friday with (Peiwen and Doi), Woan Lin and Tze Yong and made me looking forward for the coming one on Saturday with my uni friends. This might be the last time such big gang of us actually sit down to have our dinner.

Yesterday, went for movie with Doi and I think this is one of the best movies I had ever seen. Going into the cinema without any expectation, I came out from the cinema stunned!! This is definitely the best movie I watched this year, or maybe since last year, or maybe since the year before last year, or maybe...

Trying not to be a spoiler here, thus nothing about the plot will be discuss here. The director aka the writer too had such awesome imagination and unique way of telling story which make it so exciting that you never feel bored. The storyline so unpredictable which makes you so eager to know what will happen next. You can't feel that 148 minutes actually passed so fast as if you are dreaming. You wouldn't want to miss a moment. However, there are many layers in the story which might make you lost track. So, concentrate and let your imagination wonders you around.

The ending is the most cruel one but keep your imagination going on. Until now, I am still puzzle with it, and I think I had quite a serious post withdrawal symdrome from the movie. This movie is definitely worth acedemic study wise.

Leonardo definitely did a great job. I never see his movie after Titanic which makes me out of track of his acting improvement. Only then, I realised that Zac Efron, who wants to be his successor, is shadowing him. Still more work to go, Zac.

I am giving this movie 4.9/5.0 as it fulfill my desire for a scientific, action and romance movie after such a long time. Those superheros movie definitely can't fight. Haha